Tuesday, July 14, 2015

SIGNED, SEALED, DELIVERED



After Helen blew town, and the authorities secular and sacred moved Frankie through their respective bureaucracies, he was adopted by the best possible family – the Kazmarek’s of Erie, Pennsylvania, as tight and crooked, though not necessarily dishonest a brood as ever lived under one roof.  The Kazmarek clan was made up of the matriarch, Victoria, a.k.a., Ma or Busia (Leon, her husband, had passed) and her children, Florence, Theresa, Irene, Andy, Louie, John, and Stevie – none of them married.  The closest to a wedding were Florence and her boyfriend, Barney Szymanoski – an event five years in the planning though still not imminent.  Florence and Barney met in the TB hospital off of Old French Road, and though I’m tempted to crack a lot of jokes, I won’t.

Frankie was at St. Joe’s,  the Catholic orphanage, Busia collected children, and one of her own, Louie – henceforth Fr. Louie – was a young priest with a facility for making things happen.  Adoption laws were much less strict in 1946, and Fr. Louie just happened to be assigned to Saturday Confession and Sunday Mass at the orphanage. The arrangements began at Sunday supper, always a sit-down with linen, silver, china – part of the Kazmarek fortune - over a bowl of czarnina, a mahogany deep sweet and sour soup thickened with duck’s blood.  Four of the kids were at table, John and Stevie were around the corner running the saloon, the Broken Inn, and Irene was out gallivanting, nobody knew where.


                Ma, St Joe’s got a new kid last week, a boy.  The cops found him at the bus station.
               
I like boys.  What’s his name?

Nobody knew, so we baptized him Francis, after the agency lady who brought him in.  You know, it’s a boy’s name, too.

Sure, after the saint.  Francis, Frank, Frankie.  A little boy named Frankie.

Yeah.  He’s got this mark on his left hand, looks like a tattoo, looks like the number one.

 Maybe his father was a sailor. 

Who knows, anyway you got room for one more?

I think so.  What’s everybody think, we got room for one more?

Sunday supper was not a democratic parliament, and disagreement was not an option.  The question was rhetorical, though only Fr. Louie and Therese would have known what that meant.  Between the passing of kluski, those great ivory colored egg noodles for the soup, and the concerto of slurping, it looked like all the heads were nodding yes, and as long as Busia said yes, Frankie would be delivered with papers that made him an immediate and bona fide Kazmarek.  The only thing left to decide was who was going to be in charge of the boy.

 Florence stepped right up:

Florence:                Ma, let me take care of him.  It might get Barney to move faster on this wedding.

Andy:                    Your Barney’s not going to move faster until he thinks he’s got enough money salted away to take care of you, and everybody else combined.  And it’s going to take even longer if he’s got a kid to worry about.

Florence:               Oh, he’s got the money, he just needs a little kick in the dupa.

Therese:              Can I be godmother?

Fr. Louie:             Well, I already baptized him, but I suppose we can do it again.  Who wants to be   godfather?

Busia:                  Andy will do it.

Andy:                   Ma, for crying out loud, I’m busy with the saloon.­

Busia:                   You’re busy with the saloon, you’re busy with the bottle, now you’ll be a little more busy.  It’s settled.  Besides, Florence and Therese will take care of him.  Men are useless.  You just stand there for a minute, and answer those questions. Sober. Louis, we need to give something?

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Fr. Louie:             Eh, a little something to the diocese.  I’ll take care of it.

Busia:                  You?  Where you going to get money?  Florence, tell Barney to take care of it.

Florence:             Ma, Barney’s an atheist.

Busia:                 That’s his problem, now he’s an atheist with a son.  Tell him.

Fr. Louie:             Ok, good, it’s settled.  Andy, pass the czarnina, would you?


And that was how Frankie came to be a Kazmarek; as if dropped out of the clouds wrapped in a blue ribbon, delivered to an old-country matriarch, a priest, an unmarried woman, her atheist boyfriend, and a built in family of saloon owners, factory workers, secretaries, and drunks – the salt of the earth.


photos from the archives




Thursday, July 9, 2015

THE BALLAD OF HELEN AND MARY ANN


Helen and Mary Ann
two peas in a pod
one of them normal
the other one odd

No one could tell
which one was which
was Mary Ann nice
or was she a bitch

Was Helen the smart one
or was she plain dumb
no one could tell
the one from the one.

C:  Helen and Mary Ann
swore to be friends
‘til the end of forever
and then after the end

Helen and Mary Ann
met the same boy
they thought they would make him
their little toy

Helen and Mary Ann
both gave him some
but it was only with Helen
that he stole a home run

It was late in the night
Helen started to cry
Mary Ann held her close
said please tell me why

She told her the story
how the boy had been rough
how he just wouldn’t stop
when enough was enough.

C:  Helen and Mary Ann
swore to be friends
‘til the end of forever
and then after the end

There wasn’t much sleep
to be had on that night
Mary Ann went out early
fixin’ to fight

He was in the garage
past his limit on beer
Mary Ann stepped right in
and showed him no fear

They shouted and argued
'til no words were left
then the boy took a shot
and gave it his best

Was a bottle he used
almost took out her eye
Mary Ann didn’t back down
she didn’t cry

She hauled off and nailed him
broke his glass jaw
Mary Ann’s uppercut was the last
thing he saw

She turned on her heel
and left that boy yellin’
with blood on her face
she walked back to Helen.

C:  Helen and Mary Ann
swore to be friends
‘til the end of forever
and then after the end

Arms ‘round each other
they held tight and fast
but something told Helen
forever don’t last

C:  Helen and Mary Ann
swore to be friends
‘til the end of forever
and then after the end.



Wednesday, July 1, 2015

THE NUMBER ONE CHILD OF HER HEART


I was tattooed as an infant. 

The tattoo was on the back of my left hand, and was the number “1”.  Nothing at all fancy, prison style, really.  How it got done without me going through the roof, I don’t know.  Flavored brandy on my pacifier, maybe.

One Saturday, when I was thirteen, my buddy Moose McManus and I were in a neighborhood other than our own, shoplifting cigarettes.  This was in the day when cigarettes weren’t so expensive they were under lock and key, but even so they were close to the cashier, right up next to the register.  We thought we had perfected our technique:  Moose would buy a pack of gum and distract the cashier, and I’d grab the Marlboros.  We were usually successful.  Not this time.

The cashier caught my moves out of the corner of her eye, and fast as that, grabbed my wrist just as I slipped the pack out of the rack.  She looked me in the eye as I was twisting away, and Moose was out the door, and then she looked at my hand, shrieked, and grabbed me by my t-shirt.

Who are you?

Nobody, lady, I’m nobody.  Let me go.

No, just a minute, just a minute, let’s all calm down.  I’m not gonna’ call anybody.  Calm down, ok?

Lady, I’m calm, just let me go.

Promise you won’t run.

Promise.

She let me go.  I ran.  She ran after me, and caught me before I was out the door.

No, no, it’s ok, I just want to talk to you.

I was thinking, god damn, but she looked more freaked out than I was, so, ok, I cooled it.

Alright, lady.  I’m sorry.  Just let me go and I’ll never come back.  My mom’ll freak out.

Your mom?  Who’s your mom?

You don’t know her, never mind.

Lemme see your hand.

I showed her.

               

                That’s a nice tattoo.  Aren’t you a little young for a tattoo?

                I’ve had it forever.

                I knew a kid, once.  Had a tattoo just like that.

I’m thinking, bullshit, in all my life I’d never seen anyone with a number one on their hand.

                Oh, oh, gee, that’s something, but I’m not him.

No, you’re not.  Get out of here.  Don’t come back.  And listen, keep the cigarettes, you need them so bad.

Ok, thanks lady, wow, see ya, I’m goin’.

So, I beat it, and turned into the alley where Moose and I planned to duck in case we had to run for it.  There was Moose.  Just for the record, Moose was a skinny, red-headed kid, and how he got the name “Moose,” I don’t know; must have been some kind of family thing.  Anyway, I told him what happened, and we kicked pebbles, and spit on the ground, and shook our heads. 

                Hey, Moose, check it out.

I tossed him the hard pack.  Cool, he said, and rapped its top end on his palm to settle the tobacco, spun the red cellophane, cracked the pack, got rid of the foil, and drew two new sticks for our smoking pleasure.

                Hey, you got any matches? 

                Oh, shit.  Let’s head to the Broken.  Uncle Andy’ll give me some.

                C’mon.

That night, late, I’m sitting in my room, half in and half out the window, sneaking a smoke, and thinking about the day.  Well, not the whole day, just the part about the cashier.  I’m thinking about how freaked out she got, and I’m thinking I’ll go see her, even though she told me to stay away.  I couldn’t just stay away.

I didn’t go right back, it was a couple weeks, and when I did, she wasn’t there.  It was earlier than when Moose and I were there, so I figured I’d kill time, and see what happened.  City saturday, sunshine, and concrete.  I walked around the block, walked around another block, dropped into a candy store, bought a bottle of chocolate pop, lifted some smokes using my never fail solo technique, and took a break in an alley.  I liked alleys.  Quiet, cool, usually some place to sit down, and nobody bothered you.  Smoking, drinking pop, looking at my tattoo – I’ll give you a number one, I thought, and popped a left jab into the air – and enough time passed for me to wonder what I was doing, figure I wasn’t sure, and decide to do it anyway.  I headed back to the store.

I have to admit, I didn’t beeline.  I shuffled around, looked in a bunch of windows at a bunch of stuff I couldn’t care less about, looked at myself a lot, but slow and sure made it to a half block from the store. I saw her coming from the opposite direction, and my nerves jumped. Without thinking I rushed up to her and cut her off before she took three more steps.

                Hey!

She stopped, and I took a good look at her.  She must have been in her thirties, which is to say, ancient, and there was nothing about her to distinguish her from anybody else walking down the street:  blond, pale, lipstick, only thing at all different - a little scar running alongside her right eye.  I think she was surprised to see me, and clutched her handbag, but she wasn’t scared.

                Well, hi ya.

                Remember me?

                Sure.

                Remember this?

I showed her my tattoo.

                Yeah.

                Well?

She took a deep breath, relaxed her shoulders a little, and set her lips into a straight line. 

I asked her again:

                Well?

                Well, what?

                Well, who was this kid you knew?

                Oh, c’mon, just some kid, I don’t know…

Oh, c’mon yourself, lady.  Nobody ever told me they knew anybody with a number one tattooed on their hand.  Everybody pretends not to notice.  You noticed, you made some funny noise, and then you asked me about it.  What do you know, that I don’t know?

Oh, Jesus, kid…

We stood there looking at each other.

OK, listen, I’m only here to pick up my check, so I’m in no big hurry.  Let’s go sit down at that bus stop and talk.

The bus stop was back at the beginning of the block.  We walked down, and as there was nobody else around it was a good place to have a seat.

                Wanna’ smoke?

                No, kid, and you’re too young to be smoking, anyway.

                Yeah, well, I won’t have one either.  So, what do you know?

                What’s your name, kid?

                Frankie.  Just call me Frankie.  What’s yours?

I’m Mary Ann, and I’ll tell you Frankie, I don’t know much.  I had this friend about fifteen years ago.  How old are you?

Thirteen.

Yeah, that’s about right.  I had this friend, and she was trouble, or she was in trouble all the time; this, that, the other thing.  You sure you want to hear this?

Uh-huh, I’m sure.  What was her name?

Helen, her name was Helen, and anyway her father drank, and her mother – I don’t know – but Helen had a boyfriend, and she got pregnant – Jesus, kid – and anyway, she didn’t go to a home, or go live with relatives, she just, I don’t know, she just figured out how to have this baby without a lot of people knowing about it.

Where’d she have it?

Mary Ann closed her eyes, and took a deep breath. Her hand went up to her face, and brushed the scar by her eye.  Then she looked at me in a sad and resigned kind of way.

She had it in our garage, and I helped her.  Between her and me, and some other kids we trusted, and this spooky, old doctor we kept it all quiet, and kept the kid alive and healthy for about three months.

Holy Christmas.

You said it, Frankie.  It was like some weird Christmas story, with no adult supervision.

Geez.

Mary Ann and I sat there, staring into space for about a minute, not saying anything.  The sunlight had shifted into that 5 p.m slant.

                So, then what happened?

So, then it just got too hard.  People were whispering, even our friends, and the doc started asking for favors we didn’t want to do for him.  Helen decided the kid had to – here’s exactly how she put it – “he has to be given into the hands of God or the law, whoever gets him first.”  But before she let him go she wanted to put a tattoo on his hand.  She learned how to do tattoos from some old J.D. boyfriend she had.  She said it was going to be the number one, because he would always be the number one child of her heart.  That’s how she put it, “the number one child of my heart.”  And then she took whatever stuff she had, and whatever money she had, and upped and left, and she left the baby in a sink in the ladies’ room at the bus station.  The bus station called the cops, the cops turned him over to CPS, and then, I guess, to St. Joseph’s, and ain’t none of us seen or heard of Helen ever since.  Or you.  Jesus, kid, Frankie, we were just kids, we didn’t know…

What do you mean, me?  You don’t know that was me.  I bet there’s lots a kids with tattoos just like mine.  What the hell!   You’re just making shit up.

I took off from the bus stop and ran my ass off.  And where did I get to?  Yeah, inside the Greyhound station, under yellow lights, looking at the yellow pine ladies’ room door, trying to catch my breath in nicotine heaven.  I didn’t know what.  I pushed the door open, stepped in, looked at the sinks, and felt my stomach heave, but I choked whatever was coming up back down again.  I was sweating as I backed out.  I looked at the clock above the ticket counters.  Six-thirty.  I was going to miss dinner.  I went out to where the busses come and go and sat down on a bench, and started smoking one cigarette after another.  I stayed there until I got sick of the cigarettes and the diesel fumes and headed home.

I walked with my head down, stared at the ground, and pretended I was in an airplane, and the sidewalk was a big river I was flying over.  You know, that kind of kid’s stuff where you go away in your brain ‘cause there’s no good reason not to.  I’ve always been good at that.  Too good, maybe.

On the way I stopped at Moose’s house, and called up to his window. 

Nobody answered, so I walked home.

What the hell.  You know?


Richard Wells
Seattle
7/1/2015






Thursday, June 18, 2015



Dear Friends,

Thanks to all of you who followed me Sideways through Zion.  My buddy Craig and I performed a lot of the work from that blog last December (2014) @939, and January (2015)  at Arcaro Boxing Gym. Great time, great audiences.  Time now to move on.

Broken Inn - a good title, I hope, for a memoir fantastical and actual.  It shouldn't be hard to sort out the two, but, ah, when the actual becomes fantastical, or the fantastical actual then which is which and what is what or what part where by whom?  I stand fully clothed as an unreliable narrator.

The picture above is of a saloon around the corner from our extended family home on East 10th Street in Erie, Pennsylvania.  Under the name of Ziggie's, it was a family business.  Uncle Andy, and Uncle John owned the joint.  Uncle Stevie cleaned up in the morning.  My mom, Florence, would stop in on her way to  St. Stanislaus Parish grade school, and Stevie would give her a Hershey bar to put in her lunch.  I'm sure that at one time or another the whole family dropped in for a pop or a beer. I took this picture a few years ago, and I'm sorry to say I don't know the history of the joint as it morphed, through who knows how many incarnations, from Ziggie's to Broken Inn.  I suspect it never actually operated as Broken Inn, but that the sign reflects the property owner's feelings about the place.

I look forward to entertaining you.

Richard